Sunday, April 25, 2010

Planning For The Future

I don't think a lot about my honeymoon or things of that nature. But when I saw this advertised on a website yesterday, I decided that Greece will be my destination. I can stay here for $250 a night. Are you kidding me?

The Follow Through

Most of the reason that I struggle sleeping is that I have a problem shutting off my brain at night. I don't know how people can just tell theirs to stop thinking. I am unsure if I will end up posting this, but they are some thoughts I had last night:

I was listening to a talk by Spencer W. Kimball and he began speaking of covenants that we make. While I was listening to this I thought about a conversation that I had six months or so ago with a friend. I was asked why I was an obedient missionary. Now I wasn't perfect. But I really tried. At the time I responded with something about my patriarchal blessing. Last night I realized though that that had very little to do with it. It was really because of the covenants that I had made.

I have struggles in my life. Not more than most, or maybe even as many as the median. But they are there. I have talents, though I am definitely not the most talented person I know. But I feel like I am good at following through. Before my mission, I went through the temple, I made covenants. I agreed that I would serve better. That was my choice, and it was something I didn't do lightly. When I said I was going to serve a mission, I did so because I wanted to. They told me that I would have to live a certain way, and since I had made the choice to go, and I had agreed to live that way by thus accepting. By being obedient to the mission rules I was just following through with what I said I would do.

President Kimball spoke about how if we aren't going to live up to the covenants we shouldn't make them. It is given no one will perfectly. Everyone will slip up from time to time. Everyone has violated their baptismal covenants at different times. No one serves perfectly. Thus the need for the atonement, the sacrament, and for repentance. I have a close friend who will not go to the temple for any ordinance because she is scared of transgressing after that. She understands the seriousness of those ordinances and covenants. In a way, I really respect that and think it is a wise decision. If she is not ready for it, then she should not go.

Though I understand this, I also acknowledge that she should be working towards going. That should be her goal. And the basis of this should be a better understanding of the atonement. We all live different lives and we all have different problems. Jesus Christ will bless us with strength greater than whatever the opposition is. At times I think if I had more trials maybe things would be harder. But I don't necessarily believe that. Those who meet more opposition are entitled to more help. If they stay close to the Lord and ask, the help will come. So if we make those covenants, God will absolutely help us honor them.

Like I said I'm not the best. I'm not always the best example. Sometimes I act a little harshly with people. I do feel that I hold myself up to at least that same standard though. I believe that I will be judged how I judge others, and honestly I feel like I'm not unreasonable. I'm hard on myself. I believe that if I committed to do something, if I said I was going to do it, that I should be accountable to that. And I feel that others should if they made that same decision.

The promised blessings are there. The Lord has promised help. We shy away from making covenants and receiving the entitled blessings from them too often because we feel that we are not strong enough, but He is. If we really want to follow through, He will make sure that we can.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Amputee Humor

Usually I am not a fan of tattoos and think getting them are one of the more stupid things that people do. And I really love when they tell me how it reflects their deep spirituality. I mean, I know that not everyone believes as me but that is a phrase that I think is absolutely ridiculous. I think more along the lines of Christin, that tattoos really just reflect an emotional crisis in peoples' lives. Anyways, as much as dislike almost all of them, I can't help but smile at this.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Building Brains

I posted a while ago that i had a lot of creative ideas that were partially finished. Well not much has changed and it's been eating at me a little still. Luckily, I had to do a project for one of my classes yesterday that involved me building a brain with the cortical pathways and satiated the desire for the moment. So with a planting styrofoam ball, some paint, black buttons, and twenty feet of twelve gauge wire, this is what I made (the weird face stretching in the corner was thanks to Apple Computers Photo Booth program).

Pre-season 2010

I was supposed to go see a ton of games this Spring. But then I kinda forgot about Spring Training, and realized I really didn't have anyone to go with even if I wanted to. But Brenden was over a few weeks ago and he asked if I was going to any games. Well, we checked and there was only three more before opening day. So two hours later we were on our first man-date and watched the Cubs lose to us for a mere $7.

Hair Identity Crisis

I went through a hair crisis not too long ago. I just have had the same hair for SO LONG. So I tried to grow it out. And I colored it darker. And I liked it okay. But then it got longer and I remembered that I really don't have that great hair for growing out. It did look like this.

Or like a Thundercat. That was going bald.

Then I cut it off. I really think this is how short I usually cut it. But I felt like I scalped myself.

Then I colored it. Darker than it was before. Even though it is whitish in this picture.

Luckily I really like it like this.

I guess I'll have to be happy with this for the time.